Being Mom

Let me start by saying I love being a mom and I love all 4 of my kids. They bring so much joy into my life. I love watching them grow and am lucky to be able to be an active part in their lives.

With that being said I really want to address the unsaid parts of being a stay at home mom to little ones. (I can't tell you how it is as they get older but I am sure it comes with its own list).

First you are NEVER alone!!! My 2yr old even wants to follow me into the bathroom. On top of that because i wipe her she thinks she should help me wipe!!! It's not like when I was working and I would be gone for 8 hrs then come home and enjoy all the time together. As soon as my husband walks in the door I usually hand him the baby and head to the bathroom just to pee in peace.

Second you don't have very many adult conversations and when you do talk to another mom it's usually about being a mom. I was driving with my brother and the girls the other day. I was talking to McKay when CarLee yells from the back "mom talk to me" ha ha ha like i funny anyway talk to her all day long!! At night I find myself talking to Clay about anything and everything and really trying to make my day seem productive and exciting but let's face it it's not.

Third it's hard to find a reason to get dressed. I mean I will get dressed do my hair and makeup go to the store then come home and get my sweats back on and that's on a good day. Most of the time I am wearing my sweats to the store. Why get all ready just to be spilled, spit up, and  popped on. I miss the days of getting ready and actually going somewhere without the kids.

Fourth not being able to explain what I do all day and why nothing is done. I feel like I am constantly busy but at the end of the day there are half started jobs all over. A half loaded dishwasher, laundry folded but not put away, one room picked up but not vacuumed, half a table wiped off ha ha even only half my bed made!!! It's because I start something then as I go to change CarLee I notice their laundry then I start that and noticed the table half way through that I have to chase CarLee before she gets out the door and so on and so on!

Fifth thing is the mom guilt!! Mom guilt is the worst. As a mom you want to raise "good" kids and be a"good" mom. But everyday has another challenge and I will be the first to admit I lose my cool more often then not! I will find myself yelling at my kids then the guilt comes in and its too late. My kids will fight and like fist flying fight and I can usually find some way to blame my mom skills. My kids homework is not done, they ate donuts for breakfast, they didn't eat breakfast, my kids don't know how to tie their shoes and the most can go on!! Pinterest is also no help if you are having a mom guilt moment. All the post about fun healthy snacks or creative things to do with your toddler. Most of the time I can get over the mom guilt and move on but it can be a debilitating thing if you let it. A little mom guilt might help you make a change for the best but to much will paralyze you from seeing the good you are doing.

So now that might rant is over I do enjoy being home with my kids. I know this is what I chose when we got married and started our family. During the hard times my mom tells me this phase will pass and someday you will miss it. I am sure that's true but I think it's OK and good to admit it's not always perfect and enjoyable. If you are a mom and you have never felt any of these good for you and please share your secret. If you have felt these feelings just know you are not alone I have been there many times and will be there more on my journey from 3 to 4!