Life in a Fog

Life in a Fog

So as I woke up this morning I was not in a good mood. I was tired, cranky and just didn't want to deal with anything. My kids (I am sure feeding off of my mood) were the same way. They didn't want to wake up and Karson was just mad at me about any and everything! He was mad that I wanted him to put on his shoes and when I said fine don't wear shoes to school he was mad at me for saying that. I was not going to win with him! So my bad mood and their bad mood made for a rough morning. My mom was taking the boys to school and I had to drop CarLee off at the baby sitters. (This was my last day working Clay's shift at his old job as a caregiver). Of course once Grandma was around they left the house smiling and singing songs.

I drove to the baby sitters in a fog. Didn't really talk to CarLee much didn't even listen to music. I was just so tired!! Once I got to work with Kendyl she was asleep and so was our friend I was working with. I sat on my phone doing nothing scrolling Facebook playing games. The TV was on and I was mindlessly watching Dr. Phil.

I thought maybe I am hungry so I ate some oatmeal and still didn't feel better. Kendyl woke up and I was holding her but not engaging with her just holding her. I felt this rush of emotion. What was going on!!! It hit me that my head was pounding. I had a migraine! Now I don't have anything against medication but for some reason I just think if I wait it will get better which is so not the case. You can ask Clay I will usually tell him my head has been hurting all day and the first thing he says to me is did you take anything and my usual answer is no ha ha. So as I realize that's why I was not feeling good I went and took something so this time i could say yes. A little bit later I noticed I was in a way better mood. I was playing with Kendyl, talking with my friend walking around ha ha and actually wanted to get ready.

I reflected on how many times we go through our day or life in a fog and don't even realize it. How we think if I just wait it will get better. But just like how taking  medicine helped change my day and lift the fog what can we do to lift the fog of our lives. Maybe it's as simple as getting on our knees and saying a prayer or admitting we need help with something in our lives. So my question to you is what helps you lift the fog and be present in your life? Do you do it daily? I would love some different ideas for this crazy mom going from 3 to 4.